Mi Historia...

Homesick

2011-09-26T04:58:00.000-07:00

kinda lame that i make this post coz actually i am typing this blog, exactly using my HOME PC_______________________________________________________________________________FYI, me had been living in different cities in Indonesia; Bontang, Jakarta and Jogjakartaand me just moved back to Jakarta after finishing my school in UGM Jogjakartawhere actually when you take a look to my citizen id card *what's KTP in English anyway ahahaha*you'll find my address is in Jakarta, so that suppose where my home isBUT *using capital*i miss my old life in Jogjakarta and i feel homesick :'(i miss the day that everything is my responsible, not involving anyoneif i took a wrong step, no one can blame it except myselfi can do what i wanna do, and be responsible for iti feel like *sigh*not used to be like this, it's such a piece of cake for me when about suit inand it explains a lot that i am a trully sagitarius girl *or woman*

Fresco Y Nuevo

2011-04-22T08:45:00.000-07:00

Hola :)

i wanna say thanks first for my Telkomflash, there had been on my list, "change your blog theme cos it's too cheesy" HAHAHA, yeah yeah yeah just like when you see your photos when you are young and silly and all of that come from your mouth "OMG, wat have i done??? wat kinda pose is that??!!"

so i did a huge change for my blog

and my posting (can i put "s" in the end of posting, coz plural? Whatever)
what i wrote recently were kinda cheesy and GALAU

HAHAHA

so, hope this become the brand new posting and hope the next time i post a good story

Adios

Ollie

Almost

2011-03-28T10:51:00.001-07:00

(BRIAN)
Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

(DELTA)
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

(BRIAN)
I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

(BOTH)
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
(BRIAN)
Haven't I always loved you?

(DELTA)
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause you're only almost here

(BOTH)
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts

(BRIAN)
Haven't I always loved you?

(DELTA)
But when I need you
You're almost here

(BRIAN)
Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you

(DELTA)
And when I hold you you're almost here

(BRIAN)
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted

(BOTH)
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
(BRIAN)
'cause I know I'm almost here
(BOTH)
Only almost here

Have you heard "almost here" song by Brian Mc Fadden and Delta something?
This song had been in top 40 chart few years ago
But tonite, could be the best soundtrack

I always want people that I love, loving me the way I am
when I am happy about my achievements, even you might think that it just something light or maybe unimportant, or maybe yeah you can say, it's so easy for you to achieve wat I just achieved
But, I want people that I love, appreciate it
Either maybe just I performed dance or just did some works
But wat can I say, people that I love (most of them, MEN) never there when I need his smile when I say "look, wat I've done"
I always appreciate them, congrats them, be there when celebrating their success
Be the one that help them

But when about to me?
Never there for me, saw my performing, be the one there
Like that song...
"When I need you, you only almost here"

Loving me, that's not enough
But see how big my love to you, that I always okay and deal with that

Loco!

2010-12-11T02:55:00.001-08:00

Nothing can describe how I feel in this lately circumstance than this quote that I made originally from my own brain :P

"You don't care what is inside the box, you just care the box is yours or not"

I take everything seriously you know, and I don't like when somebody destroy my happiness

As a sagitarrius woman, you may see we okay with you, but if we already warned you what is in our heart what's bothering us and you don't take it seriously, you'll see how we leave you alone

Welcome to the lalaLand Love!

2010-10-19T06:12:00.001-07:00

Wow today is a special day
Coz it's 19 of October
FYI, me and Sandro officially became a couple on 19th August 2009
It's been a year 3 month, we walk hand in hand facing our life with commitment

And what I like the mosssttt is
It's the end of the year!
Lots of birthday and cakes
I love surprises, gifts, and cakes
I love seeing the one that I love smiling :D

And my birthday is coming!!!
Yippieee
And the birthday wishes are:

Hugs from that I love...mom, dad, audi, sandro and friends

And hugs

And hugs

And hugs
Ehehehehhehee

Just want big hugs from you all!!

change position, shall we?

2010-10-06T18:53:00.001-07:00

I am tired who always the one who starts everything
Coz if I don't start, your action is such a zero point

I am tired who always the one who does the move
Coz if I don't that, you will be hiding in your comfort zone

I am tired who always the one that forgiving
Coz if I am still angry, you don't care my feeling

Oh Gosh

it's not just a piece of cake

2010-10-01T06:23:00.001-07:00

Long time no writing any!
It's been a very busy time and need a moment to suit in

As time goes by, just want to share
You know, life wouldn't be complete if there's a spice called love

There's a cute couple that I expected it could be like the story for silly girls 'happily ever after' stuff
Which totally look good outside, but never thought of it could be as fragile as like it's broken apart
Don't mention the time they've been together, coz I think that's enough to call it long time
Don't mention the effort for this relationship, coz that's such a high quality of relationship
Don't ask how the girl tried to save their love, coz I think she sacrificed almost everything
But, the ending is just a simple as you blink your both eyes

Just because the boy only loves the idea of love, not the meaning of love
We, as a woman, hardly to tell what's inside in our head, coz emotion involves
we, as a woman, is like a bomb, timer bomb, coz if don't treat us well, we can just blown up and destroy everything without any apology or permission or without a warning

You might not get a clue, you might 'oh my, it's okay all the time' 'hey, you changed!'
Woman is just the same human being just like you man
You may give a clue, well we give you a clue too

Maybe you're too comfort of the idea of love
The idea of love is just like garnish for food, or decoration of cake
You just enjoy the way she loves you
You just care that she loves you
You just want that she's there for you
Life sucks Dude, we end up dying alone!
When there's just a little tiny flaw in her, you blame it
When you see her bad habit, you ask her for a change in her manner
When she says something that bothering her, you get angry and never listen
When she tries to fix everything for you, you just watch
When she is disobey, you curse her

It's such a nature when a woman thinks, the heart plays the part first

But when she thinks this could be the time, and she thinks that she has a power to fight back, we are women could be heartless

Have you ever watched valentine's day movie?
There's a quote "when you love someone,you must love the whole complete the one you love, don't sweat a small thing coz you forget the big thing called LOVE"

different universe but same old human

2010-08-26T16:04:00.001-07:00

Heyho!
Gosh, everytime I saw my blog layout, always in my mind 'Damn, I'll change that when I have a good connection of internet and enough time'

Now, I'll let you to think something, well not only thinking, I want to hear some opinions, I love opinions, the more eccentric of your thought of something, the more enthusiastic I build and lead my curiosity to know more

We were born as a human
We are social

As to me, I respect every person in the world with their attitude and personality coz I love to be freedom so it let me that I should give them what I want them to give to me

We are all humans, have unique thought of something
We are free to express everything coz we're born with special rights, I said rights not right, yes it's plural, coz a lot of rights that we blessed to have them

And I think that when you ask someone in about to change the way she or he live, enjoying their live, it might confront in the very first beginning, coz It against their rights
Different person, different type
A lot of people easily changing their behavior with so many reasons, may they get fear if they don't change, or (this is good) may they think that it could be the best for them

For me, when I ask someone to change, and especially the changes is for me, it delivers me a guilty feeling in the next day, let me give you some examples...when I ask my little sister who have a very different way of thought in fashion stuff to change her choose in taste of fashion, in the beginning I might be so happy, I feel like 'yey, this changing could help me when I want to get some presents for her coz we would to pick the same stuff', the "yey" thingy then become "oh no", coz after that, I couldn't get a different thought of style which may help me in different way of seeing

To me, you are so silly when you ask someone to change for you...
We're not God who create them...even God never blame His Creation to choose the own way of living
Don't you ever feel in your heart when you see the one that you asked them to change, changed it for you and you miss the old him or her?

And he or she looks at you with his or her betrayal eyes and says 'hey you, I am changing, is because of you, and now you miss the old me? Are you nuts??'
Not only the guilty feeling, but also feeling of insincerity of accepting he or she personal?
Don't you see he or she done to you with all sincerity, giving up the old him or her only because of you?

Think twice then, never across on your mind that we all have hearts
They may say 'it's okay, I'll change' but always a little, even tiniest piece of disappointed?

We may naïve and say 'yes, you change!' But never learn of untainted love?
You want to be loved, but you don't love them...
You say you love them the way he or she is, but you want he or she like this, like that, do this, do that
You love him or her as a what? As a human, or as an animal who doesn't have mind?

Well, it's good when she or he says 'well, I change coz it's for my own good, thanks for asking me to do that'
Compare to this 'thanks for remind me what is good and what is bad, and I learn it from you, I change cos I learn by myself'

See the difference? Don't be so naïve and denying of this, even the heartless people can't lie with his or her own heart

So, to me...love the plurality that God gives to us, and let the people around you change, just because they learn
If they don't change, don't see it with one eye, try the other eye, you see the beauty of humanity

;)
Adios!

LoL sad face

2010-08-11T20:10:00.001-07:00

How it feels when the one that you love with all of your heart and you will risk your life for him, he don't believe you, he don't trust you, he trust the rumor and he believes what people say, where the rumor just mixes up and full of lies, and you are the one that knew the fact of it?

How could you smile when the one that you love accusing you for the mistake that you never did?

How could you be with him, if he just cares you love him or not, and doesn't care what deep inside you?

How could you be happy, when the one that you care about never see the nice and love point of your action for him?

How could you smile when he always blames every mistake that he made to you?

Only the purity of love could do that
I learn how it feels Mom, and Dad, and My sister
It feels hurt, but you always think the one that you love is happy rite?

I am strong for you, Mom, Dad and Audi ♡ ♡

sweet sour chicken

2010-08-10T14:57:00.000-07:00

Weird for a title rite, hehehe
But that's my feeling :( :)

"You just don't care what is inside the box, you just care the box is yours or not"

"Happy fasting everyone"

"GUDLUCK for your internship Ridzky Novasandro"

Keep spinning on my head

2010-07-30T18:40:00.000-07:00

Hiiii

I knew that I am kinda late listening the new album of Rihanna, as I am a very very big fan of her
I was extremely sad when she cancelled her concert in Indonesia TWICE! And I bought the ticket TWICE too! Duh!

The New Album, Rated R if I am not mistaken
In the beginning was beyond of my expectation
A lot of change in Rihanna,her style, her new look, even her taste of music
Feel like Rihanna now so weird! I had heard rumors about her
But I think the Rihanna's changing is a big impact from her love life :D *soktau*

In her album, Rated R, there are some songs that I really like
- stupid in love
- rockstar 101
- Rude boy
- Photograph
And I think I like the album so much :D so sorry Rihanna that I thought your new album was weird hehehe

*ps: Te Amo, Ridzky Novasandro...don't let me be the one like in the song 'stupid in love'

mirror of erised

2010-07-29T08:41:00.000-07:00

Don't promise me the moon coz I am not asking you to get it
Don't promise me the star where there's no way to fly to the sky

Coz it's like a promise in the dark

#got inspiration from 'promise in the dark-keri hilson'

Relationship

2010-07-23T06:51:00.000-07:00

Oh My, udah lama gak posting, someday gw akan merombak blog ini kalo ada koneksi internet

Pas nulis ini, gw lagi kkn

Kkn seringkali menjadi suatu ancaman atau berkah dalam hal hubungan
Tidak hanya hubungan percintaan, namun juga pertemanan

Banyak yang brantem karena KKN dan jadian karena KKN

melihat kenyataan yang ada di hadapan gw dan merefleksikan apa yang terjadi dalam hidup gw, gw mau berbagi...

Menurut gw (ke-naif-an gw sih) kalo teman tidak bisa menjadi pacar
Yaaa gw tidak menutup kemungkinan hal itu bisa terjadi kapan saja
Namun, gw selalu berusaha menghindari hal ini terjadi
Sebisa mungkin, sekuat mungkin smoga itu tidak terjadi
Tapi gw ga mau kemakan omongan gw sendiri...jadi gw ga mau sebegitu anti nya

Kenyataan yang terjadi, hubungan gw dan mantan2 gw tidaklah pernah mulus
When we broke up, my ex-s are all yours
I don't care about him anymore, he must find the new best way for his (love) life
Itulah reason gw yang paling pertama yang paling mendasari pendapat gw tadi
Hubungan yang berawal dari teman, menurut gw akan tidak baik jika harus di akhiri hanya karena percintaan
Kecuali emang percintaan itu everlasting...

Lagu jason mraz yg "lucky I am in love with my bestfriend"
Sangat tidak sejalan dengan gw
My best friend tidak bisa menjadi my soulmate
Tetapi my soulmate bisa menjadi my best friend

Gw selalu memiliki soulmate atau yaahh my lover dari seseorang yang tidak pernah berawal merupakan sahabat gw
Dan menurut gw, ini yang terbaik :)
Menemukan soulmate itu berbeda dengan berteman

Mencari teman itu mudah, mencari musuh lebih mudah lagi
Namun mencari soulmate, twin soul?? Susah
Tidak hanya kita harus mencari titik klik, namun juga ketulusan
Kalo dengan teman, kita tidak bisa andil dalam kehidupan mereka
Still ada individualis nya
Sedangkan soulmate? Itu seperti puzzle, memasangkan bagian demi bagian,suka duka menjadi suatu keutuhan bersama sehingga menjadi potret yang indah, bagi diri kita, 2 orang,dalam 1 jiwa

Curhat nya: gw gak pernah dapet pacar dengan cepat karena itu susah
Butuh waktu setaun dua taun gw baru mau membuka hati :)

nilai ekonomis suatu hubungan

2010-03-28T18:00:00.000-07:00

Yaaaakkk, seringkali gw dan arum (www.lalityarum.blogspot.com) ngebahas soal 'seluk beluk hubungan'
Mulai dr sisi yang superduper menjunjung ego feminimism sampai berjuang dengan kelogikaan yangmana 2 orang wanita ini melankolis tingkat tinggi
Untung nya, ketika gw tidak bisa mengambil sisi realitas dari suatu permasalahan, Arum selalu menjadi pihak yang waras, begitupun sebaliknya

Nilai ekonomis suatu hubungan
Hmmm, kalo di akuntansi, suatu aset itu PASTI memiliki umur ekonomis
Ada masa depresiasi nya, ada masa susut nya, ada masa nya di ganti, ada masa nya di perbaiki dan ada masa nya dimasukin ke gudang
Taaapiiii ada loh aset yang malah makin lama makin tinggi kualitas nya, yang mana ntar di itung nya pake metode lain hehe
Kaya tanah, emas gitu2lah

Oke, itu prolog nya...enough with the whole accounting thingy, well I suppose to do my assignment but I really stuck in the mood-i-must-write-my-blog
Ada orang yang pacaran lama2 ampe bertahun2, eh malah putus trus malah nikah ama orang lain
Ada yang pacaran bentar bgt eh langsung nikah
Ada yg udah nikah malah cerai

Awalnya gw dan Arum selalu menyayangkan ketika suatu hubungan itu mesti disudahi
Rasa nya aneh gak sih, dulu kita sayang-sayangan, saling berjanji satu sama lain, peduli
Ehhh skarang malah kaya musuhan

Arum juga baru nge post soal ini
Dan gw sependapat dgn dia
Ini masalah waktu nya

Suatu hubungan pasti ada waktu nya, waktu kadaluarsa
Sudah bisa mendapatkan poin dari antara dampak dan penyebab
Dampak dari kadaluarsa nya suatu hubungan itulah yang membuat penyebab-penyebab seperti selingkuh, main serong, bunuh diri, ngamuk2 dan lain-lain
Itu pun kembali tergantung pada masing-masing individu mengembalikan umur ekonomis hubungan mereka
Dan yang nama nya suatu hubungan, itu 2 orang *gw tegasin 2 orang yah* yang ngejalanin, bukan 1 orang ato malah 3 orang
Dan jika memang, waktu kadaluarsa itu sudah tiba, dan memang harus berpisah, akan lebih baik kalo emang perpisahan itu dilakukan untuk menyelamatkan jiwa masing2

Baru2 ini, beberapa pasangan yang gw pikir akan slalu bersama, eh memilih berpisah
Yaaa memang sudah masa kadaluarsa nya dan akhirnya para pria itu sudah menemukan penggantinya
Dulu bgt, gw pernah di dokrin 'disaat kamu udh dewasa, dimana kamu sudah gak naif lagi, selingkuh adalah jalan yg terbaik untuk menyelamatkan hubungan'
Walopun gak setuju dengan doktrin itu, tapi well ada yang berhasil kok kaya gitu
It's all up to them yang ngejalanin hubungan yang lagi kadaluarsa
Dan yang perlu di tegaskan lg, kita ini manusia bukan barang
Barang bisa elo buang, bisa elo perbaiki, bisa apa aja
Tapi ini ada hubungan
HUBUNGAN
Lebih kompleks

Adios

if I

2010-03-24T18:36:00.000-07:00

Kalo aku boleh melakukan hal gila, aku ingin sandro dan aku bertukar posisi :( hard for me to understand myself when I am full of jealousy
I want to see the other side to handle my emotion and my anger, coz what I want to do is just the way you did
But seems I can't coz you said that I must not do that, and I did your request
:'(

Kalo aku boleh melakukan suatu dosa, aku akan menumpahkan kecemburuan ku dengan cara-cara ku

Kalo aku menjadi seorang cowo, aku akan mencoba mendengarkan setiap perkataan pasangan ku dan mencoba mengerti nya
Aku akan membuat nya percaya pada ku
Aku akan membuat nya merasa nyaman
Aku akan menjaga nya
Karena menjadi wanita itu sulit, kami terpaksa menelan bulat2 smua emosi karena dimana para lelaki bisa dengan gampang nya mengekspresikan amarah nya

Kalo aku boleh mengekspresikan perasaan ku, aku akan marah2, membanting2, memukul2 dan menyakiti

Kalo aku boleh meminta sesuatu, aku akan meminta ketenangan dalam hatiku dan memeluk mama papa adik ku :'(

Daammmmnnnnn, I am so saaaadddd

Rasa nya seperti menelan amarah mu bulat2,berusaha untuk tetap tersenyum padahal hati terus menangis karena tuntutan orang2 yg kamu sayangi
Dimanaaa keadiillaaaaannnn!!!!

cute!

2010-03-20T09:34:00.000-07:00

"Do I turn left, where nothing is right? Or do I turn right, where nothing is left?"

Such a cute line rite?? found randomly in twitter, my friend of mine, Riza retweet this

♡

world greatest men alive

2010-03-18T17:12:00.000-07:00

Sorry with bad grammar of the tittle (got a feeling that I put the words incorrectly) but I love to put those words like that

Today, I am not feeling well, got a fever last night, hardly slept, and running nose :(
I always know that forcing my body to dance will end up with SICK, but what else I can do to catch up the coreo, the move, the step etc?? Hiks
Having a baked macaroni with actually I didn't bake it, but fried it hahaha...it's a good taste but the look, duh!

Heeeyyyy, today is the 7 months' anniversary of me and Ridzky Novasandro, horaaaaayyy
I got so many congrats from my friends and pray that we'll be long lasting, AMIEN

But now, I wanna make a list of world greatest men alive:

1. My father
My father is so independent, he's a single fighter in fulfilling the economy for my family
He don't agree in carreer woman, he wants his daughters to be taking care of with my mom
So, if you ask me how I feel about having a baby sitter, I don't know...
Daddy always wants every daughter got a good education,not only his daughters, but others too
He works so hard, really really so hard, it's so usual for me that only can see him from 11pm to 7am :(
Don't ask me in weekend, sometimes he still got plenty of works that should be done
My dad always ask me to not go to a government company, indonesian company for specific
When I was in junior and senior high, my dad moved to dutch company, and it felt so much relief, I loved it
It's easy for us to have holiday, trip...I miss it :( but it's okay Dad :)
I love my dad, even my dad love my sister so much hahahahahaaaaaaaa
Nothing compare my dad, he's such a protective person when it comes to her daughters...
I am not allowed to drive my car in Jakarta, I am not allowed to be alone, but daddy wants her daughter to be independent!!!
Hahahahahahahahhahahaaaaaaaaaaaaa, such a weird, love is weird hahahahahaaa
I love you so much dad :* ♥ ♥

2. Ridzky Novasandro
He's not just my boyfriend, he's also my friend, my partner, my lil brother, my big brother, my grandpa, even MY DAD
He's the nicest man :)
I never felt that a man, a strange man not from my family could be this nice
He's loving, caring, sweet, independent, straight foward, bold, stubborn, elegant (what's wrong with my word)......
I love him so much
I always say this to my sister "if you want to have a boyfriend, find a boy that just like Ridzky Novasandro, you'll be happy"
Having him in my life, such a pleasure even a gift for me
He teach me a lot, learn from him a lot too :)
♥ ♡

3.My grandpas
Even I never met my grandpa from my mom, but I am pretty sure that my grandpas are the best!!!
Both of them from army of Indonesia, they're soldiers...(Just pop up from my brain 'I don't need a soldier, but I need a knight hahaha)

4.My genggonggeng's friends
Never having such solid friends like you all, we're family rite? ;)

Emmmmm, I think these all done, I'll continue my breakfast and got to start doing my homework :'(
Adios!!!

K A N G E N

2010-03-17T15:44:00.000-07:00

Saya kangen mami
Kangen bermalas2an dan mami tetep aja memanjakan diriku
Dimasakin, di beliin ini itu, nemenin dia blanja bulanan, ngobrol2...

Saya kangen adek
Blanja ama Audia Aldjawa dan bli sesuatu kembaran itu rasa nya selangit
Nge dandan-in dia itu sangat2 memuaskan hati
Nyanyi di kamar nge-freak2 bareng, aku suka

Saya kangen papi
Kangen di ajak makan enak2, kangen di kasih duit jajan *hahaha*
Iihhhh coba papi gak suka komentar soal feminisme ku dalam berpakaian
Trus gak suka pilih kasih, hahahahaaaa

Saya kangen Ridzky Novasandro
Ini paling manjaaaa, baru aja tadi malem ketemu
Kangen di peluk2, kangen nge sun pipi nya
Kangen ngeliat dia nyetir
Kangen ngegoda2in dia
Kangen nyender ke badan nya
Dasar pake pelet kamu! Hehehe

Saya kangen Prisna Maharani
Kangen cerita apapunnnn
Kangen ngebahas apaapuunnn
Kangen berbodoh ria dengan kamu
Cuma kamu soulmate sejati ku!

Saya kangen keluarga besar ku
Mbak niken, mas dimas, fadhil, vininta, Yang titik, dan semua nya
Kangeennn crita2 soal buku ama mbak iken
Kangen mempengaruhi fadhil biar suka hip hop rnb dan emang akhirnya suka hahaha

Kangen The Bitches
Jangan dilihat dari arti namanya
Mereka bukan the real bitches
Masa2 jalan2 ke Bandung, have fun go wild yang sebenernya itu salah
Tapi gak ada yang bisa menandingi pertemanan itu
Hey Billy, where the heck are you!!!
Kita cuma miskomunikasi and you lost your cellphone rite?

Kangen DowntoEarth
Itu knapaaaa nama nya jadi downtoearthhh hahahahaa
Gara2 kebodohan di kelas ILP
Hebat yaaa, ternyata kesolidan suatu pertemanan yg berbeda usia
Yang disatukan hanya di sebuah kelas yang paling cuma 2jam 2kali seminggu
Menandingi kesolidan teman2 freak dan gak wajar SMA gw *dikecualikan temen2 real gw di SMA*

Kangen temen2 Albin
Berduabelas
Masih ajaa bersama
♥

Kangen genggonggeng
Terimakasih Allah SWT yang telah memberi ku kesempatan kedua untuk merasakan apa itu persahabatan di SMA yang indah
Walopun telat baru ngerasain pas kuliah
Aku sayang temen2 genggonggeng, true and real friends

Kangen BBB
Karaoke, muter2, belanja bareng, cari kado buat masing2 pacar kita
Ya ampuuunnn trakhir kapaaannnn

Kangen asisten2 terbaik
Di pijetin tarsih, dan kangen berkata 'tarsiiihh, bisa tolongin aku gakkkk??'
Atau berkata 'pak satinoo, tolong anterin ke....ntr jemput saya...makasihhh'

Kangen masa-masa jahiliyah
Namun ini hanya sekedar di ingatan
Tidak perlu diulangi
Tidak bermutu, hehehe

Kangen rumah
Tapi pas di rumah, kangen kost
Kangen hidup bersama, ntar kangen hidup sendiri
Manusia emang gak pernah puas

Kangen nangis di kamar mandi sambil berendam air anget semi panas
Pasti encok gw skrg sembuh hahahaa

Kangen grovella dancer
Nari ampe skarang gw encooookkk hahaha

Kangennnn gw kangen apapuuuunnnnnn

Kangeeennn, perasaan ingin bertemu...perasaan ingin berdekatan kembali
Menumpahkan kelelahan akan dunia, dan melepaskan nya bersama

Kangeeennnnnnnnnnn :'(
♡ ridzky novasandro ♡

Letter to God

2010-03-12T22:12:00.000-08:00

Dear God in heaven,
I know I am not the best person in the world
But now I am begging to you
I am so exhausted God
I am sick God
Please, help me God
Please

PIpi lucu kuuu

2010-03-11T16:20:00.000-08:00

Yaaa sedih banget deh kalo posting pake hp gak bisa upload foto (mungkin bisa, tp gw gaptek kali yaa)
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Hiks padahal harus liat banget, gw lagi suka pada sesuatu yaitu PIPI

Ini bukan sembarang pipi, ini pipi nya Ridzky Novasandro, hehehe...
Pipi nya dia tuh gembil2, padat nya pas, empuk2 gimanaaa gitu, trus apaa yaaa enak deh buat di sun *blushing*
Trus kalo Ridzky Novasandro lg makan, ya ampuuunnn pipi nya enak bangeeettt goyang2 gituuu
Gw ampe pernah di gap in nyokap gw lg megang2 pipi nya dia hahahaha

Ini pipi bukan sembarang pipi...pipi ini bawa hoki bgt...banyak deh kejadian yg hokkiii bgt
Contoh nya, Ridzky Novasandro lg cape kuliah, eh mendadak kuliah nya di tiadakan, huh jangan harap gw bs se hoki itu :(

Pipi ini terlihat lucu kalo dari depan, tapi kalo dari samping, malah jd terlihat rahang yg tegas dan kuat
Seperti mengeluarkan suatu statement yg tidak bisa di ganggu gugat, dan pipi ini terlihat jelas kalo Ridzky Novasandro lg nyetir, astagaaa gw suka nahan nafas ngeliatnyyaaaa

Ridzky Novasandro itu seperti Titanium...kuat, tapi ringan, anti karat dan berwarna gelap :)
Menggambarkan karakter dia yang teguh, independen, straight foward, tidak terpengaruh apapun, bold, smart, misterius dan baik jika kau telah mengenalnya
Berbeda dengan gw yang seperti jelly
Tuing2, leme2, gampang rusak, transparan, rapuh, di kerasin dikit rusak, warna warni...
Tapi, itu berarti kita saling melengkapi kan ;)

XOXO

call 911-Dear-God

2010-03-10T16:10:00.000-08:00

Woke up this morning, and it's chill outside, the weather is so cold...and now I am freezing, my hands can't stop shaking (damn! I forget the word 'menggigil' in English)...my eyes are swollen and my face is pale...

Last nite, I cried so extremely....I was just to scared to face the reality that just came to my life, God gives me problems, and I have to face it...but don't forget that I am just an ordinary girl, it's easy for me to be scared. I am scared in losing, being alone, not being in love again and I am so afraid of disappointing someone which actually, I did all of the mistakes, and now if it's only the way that can return back the whole things into the way that it should be, let me down on my knee, asking for your mercy, forgiveness, apology and anything that can bring you back together with me

I understand you, it's hurt that maybe you feel like I don't care anymore about you which is so much wrong coz I care, really care about you, you feel like I never hear every single what you told me, that actually I listen, I do listen and I do really listen....but I am here, I am just an ordinary person that could fall in the same place again, I am just a silly person that can do the same mistake but I do believe, I never mean to do it every single mistake that I had done it before....trust me....please trust me....I swear I never want to do every single mistake that already made.... :((
If there is something that I could bring you here again with me, I'll do it

I am just an ordinary and silly person... I am just so weak God, I just don't know wat else I should do, please I am here, I am here, need Your hands...

Ridzky Novasandro

2010-03-10T09:34:00.000-08:00

Setelah menjadikan blog ini private (karena sebenernya malu udah gak pernah posting lg), akhirnya marii ayooo berceritaaaaa....
Entah mengapa, gw kok demen banget yah cerita, kalo di suru ngerjain tugas akuntansi sektor publik yg slalu di kumpulin tiap hari senen walopun itu memberikan value added pada diri gw di banding cerita2 gak penting, gw TETEP milih cerita...ada gak sihhh kuliah yg isi nya belajar dari pengalamaaann?? Hiks

Rabu, 10 maret 2010, gw baru aja kuliah akuntansi manajemen lanjutan, dan entah mengapa gw slalu semangat kuliah ini walopun selalu telat, dosen nya bilang kalo yg nama nya hidup, itu terserah kita mau menentukan hidup kita dari mana, mau dari logika atau dari pengalaman....ya ampuuunn, kalo gw, gw tentuuu memilih pengalaman laahh....gw sangat-sangat menghargai pandangan orang lain, bisa dikatakan toleransi gw cukup tinggi, karena menurut gw, what you give, is what you get....ini beneeerrrr banggetttt!!!

Kalo gw liat postingan gw dibawah, isi nya Ridzky Novasandro semua yaaa, ngareeeppp dia muluuu hahahaa...bingungg tuh gw dulu yakin banget mau crita ke siapaa, curhat deh di blog....begoo yaaa, udah tau Sandro tuh pinterrr nauzubilaaa, malah curhat di blog, ktauan lah smua nyaaa

Gw sangat percaya dan sayang sama Allah SWT, aku tau senakal apapun aku kepada Nya, dia masih saja berbaik hati, salah satu nya dia mengirimkan Ridzky Novasandro kepada gw, entah mengapa gw seneng bgt nulis nama panjang dia, kaya dia itu memang rejeki (dibaca: hadiah) dari Allah SWT buat gw di November....

Awal ketemu dia, inget banget di Bebakaran Jakal, hiyaaaa never asked me to describe his face, CUEK!! JUTEK!! Weekkk sebeeelll hahahaa, I remembered I said this to my ex " iyaa, td ada cowo gitu, ganteng sih (loh, kok udh naksir duluan yah gw, hahaha), cuma yaa gitu Jutek, huh jaim" hahahaa....ketemu lagi, pas di Fudfezt dan dia cuma nyapa, dan gw cuek bebek.....

Gw mengakui, tiap kali gw lagi jomblo ato apalah dulu, temen2 nya sandro selalu nge-ceng2in gw buat ama sandro dan gw slalu "yaelah, gw gak kenal kaliii!!", sampe akhir dari buka puasa Al-Azhar, dia nge add FB gw dan I was like "ohh, sandro..." That's it...gak pernah terlintas gw ntar bakalan ngintilin dia mulu ampe gak bisa bobo kalo gak dia ngomong 'hugs and kisses for you' *yupp, it's real!*

Boys came and then broke my heart, over and over again, till I felt that love is not real...temen2 gw curhat 'aduuhh lieee, gw masih sayang ama dia lalala', 'gw udh jadian ama dia, tp sbenernya si X masi ada di hati gw' dan gw tetep kekeuh dengan 'lo pasti bisa, apasih move on2, sori gw gak se lemah itu' *Ya Allah* dan akhirnya gw jatuh di lubang yg sama dengan mereka, dan gw harus terpaksa untuk tidak menjilat ludah gw sendiri

Berawal dr FB chat, lanjut YM...ingeeett bangett dulu gw ampe di tinggal temen2 gw ke amplaz cuma gara2 gw masi aja asik YM-an ama sandro dan gw lg melancarkan aksi gw untuk dapetin nomer nya, well sori gw gak se alay 'sandroo, minta no hp nya dong' tapii gituu tuuhhh, si Beruang satu itu jaim bgt, as usual gw yg heboh mulu disini, gw heboh bgt crita seberapa tergila2 nya gw ama roti maryam, dan gw yakin dulu si Beruang mikir gw itu marketing nya roti maryam karena saking persuasif nya gw, tuh sandro ampe mau ajaaa gituu gw paksa ngerasain roti maryam (I am good in the Law of Attraction), sampe simsalabim, gw dapetin nomer nya dia hohohohoo....happy dong...boleh dongg gw seneengg....

Tapii yaaa gituu sihh, cuma masih wall2an ama dia, dan gw ampe diginiin ama dia 'lo mau bales wall gw ato nulis novel sih Lie?'. Lambat laun, kita berteman. Sampe suatu hari, gw dan Kelompok gw mata kuliah Sistem Informasi Akuntansi mendapat tugas yang hhhmmm simpel, cuma emang dasarnya kelompok gw bukan merupakan kombinasi terbaik ditambah nya ada nya sampah kaya gw, mentok lah pas ngerjain, walopun bukan kelompok gw aja yang mentok. Pas lg ngerjain ni tugas di selasar, ada satu kelompok yg sepertinya telah mendapat titik terang bilang kalo dia di bantu anak IT UGM, nah tiba2 temen SMA nya Sandro nyeletuk 'kelompok lo minta tolong ama sandro aja, dia kan IT' dan akhirnya dengan seenak nya (mungkin karena gw cuma tim penggembira dan paling doyan ngoceh), di utus untuk cari bala bantuan ke Sandro (dan yg laen nya pada ongkang2 kaki, NICE bgt kalian! Hahaha), entah gimana akhirnya tugas gw yg ternyata berentetan ujung2 nya bolakbalik minta tolong Sandro, membuat gw ada perasaan yg hmm aneh aja kalo gak sehari aja gak berinteraksi ama Sandro, kaya ada yang ilang aja....jalan hidup emang gak semulus jalan tol, gw akui itu...even jalan tol pun ada hambatan nya, banyak bgt jatuh bangun gw menjalani kebersamaan ama Sandro, namun seperti hal nya cinta tulus, dimanapun apapun yang terjadi, membalikkan gw kembali ke Sandro, sampai dimana gw sempat mendapatkan fakta (atau opini) bahwa gw dan dia tidak bisa lebih dari skedar teman dan gw harus menelan bulat2 semua harapan yg gw jatuhkan pada dia, dengan tulus nya gw menjalani apa yang ada di depan mata gw, tidak bergeming akan sesuatu, dan terus aja merelakan. Kalau kata mami, itu yang nama nya Keikhlasan. Ikhlas itu indah. Ikhlas itu ajaib. Ikhlas itu anugrah.

Sikap ikhlas gw akan fakta itu, membuat beberapa temen gw ngomong 'lo dulu koar2 kalo dimana2 harus jelas, lo gak percaya ama yang nama nya move on, lalala' apalagi dulu gw pernah menyuruh temen gw untuk minta kejelasan ama pacar nya yg ngegantungin dan dia menyuruh gw untuk minta kejelasan yg mana sama aja gw menjilat ludah gw sendiri, dan itu pun gw gak bisa ngelakuin. Mungkin gw telat untuk urusan cinta-cinta kali yaaa

Nyiapin deadline buat nanya kejelasan, mundduuuurrr ajaaa gituuu dengan plegma nya...hahahaa...kalo di Akuntansi, ibarat nya gini, gw transaksi, cuma gak ada nota nya, nilai transaksi itu gak sah, jd nya susah buat di audit dan di accrued, hehehee...ada juga yg nyantol tuh koar2 dosen2 gw

Sampai akhirnya, 19 Agustus 2009, nota transaksi nya dikeluarin ama PT. Sandro hehehe....lucu nya, rasa nya yah sama aja...mau di keluarin nota apa nggak, hehehe...

Gak terasa, itu udah hampir 7 bulan yg lalu...gw ama PT. Sandro udah merger (done with the accounting thingy!)
Lucu rasa nya kalo gw ngeliat kejadian kebelakang lg, dimana gw ama dia masih jalan dengan jalur nya masing2, yg selalu aja ada persimpangan mempertemukan gw ama dia, dan akhirnya memutuskan untuk nebeng satu sama lain, eh gak nebeng, jalan bareng2 (makin malem makin kacau bahasa gw)

Nama nya juga jalanan, ada belokan, ada tikungan, ada polisi tidur, ada bolongan, ada batuan, ada tanjakan, ada turunan, ada rambu2, ada polisi nya, ada kena tilang, macem2 deh...sama ajaaa, jangan dipikir yg nama nya orang menjalani suatu hubungan, kita bisa berekspektasi untuk mulus2 aja, smua ada rintangan. Ada yg menghadapi rintangan itu dengan menyudahi perjalanan nya, ada yg menghadapi rintangan itu dengan menyerahkan semua nya ke pasangan nya, ada yg ini, ada yg itu, semua punya cara nya masing2. Ini semua perasaan yg bermain, jangan harap logika bisa memecahkan semua ini, sampai2 suatu logika pun tetep aja (menurut gw) di pikir menggunakan hati, karena suatu kesia-siaan jika sesuatu tidak ada ikut campur hati.

Sama dengan hubungan ini, hubungan ini pure gw jalanin dengan ikhlas...gw sangat2 menyayangi Ridzky Novasandro, egoisme gw ke dia udah ada ketika gw minta Sandro buat nerima boneka (si Ilham). Gw cuma pengen dia tau, kalo dia udah mengisi hari2 gw, dia udah membuat gw belajar ilmu Tuhan yaitu ikhlas, dia udah ngajarin gw banyak hal, dia udah nemenin gw di tengah jahat nya dunia, dia dia dan dia, gw gak mau dia lupa ama gw, tapi gw ikhlas ama dia (yeeee ini bukan ikhlas nama nya hahahaa) tapi jujur gw ikhlas

Ketidakcocokan, perasaan mengganjal, amarah, egoisme, posesif, naif, cemburu, kesal, bosen, dan semua yang jelek2 suatu saat pasti bisa datang kedalam suatu hubungan, tapi seperti yg td gw bilang, ini tinggal bagaimana kita menyikapi nya, dan bagi gw, itu semua harus dihadapi, kita berdua harus menghadapi itu, karena yg jalan itu 2 orang, perasaan nya dua orang dan berada satu jalan....hidup itu seperti apa kita melihat nya, dan bagi gw, hidup itu indah karena gw ngejalanin nya bersama orang yang gw sayang, yang mana pas gw jatoh di lobang jalan kehidupan dia nolongin gw, ketika jalan nya lurus kita kebut2an bareng, ketika tikungan kita ngerem bareng2....semua gw jalanin bareng sama dia, dan dia disini Rizky Novasandro...

Mellow Yellow

2009-11-11T23:54:00.000-08:00

Sajak Sebuah Ayunan

Ku ayun kembali ayunan ini
sudah lama, ia teronggok disana
ketika ku kecil, ia tempat pelarianku

Ku ayun kembali ayunan ini
andai saja waktu bisa berhenti sejenak
membiarkan aku bernafas akan hembusan udara

Ku ayun kembali ayunan ini
berharap setiap kali mengayun, lelah ku hilang
namun penat tidak bersahabat dengan ku

Ku ayun kembali ayunan ini
detak jantungku beradu dengan kecepatan angin
berpacu akan sesuatu yang mesti tercapai

Ku ayun kembali ayunan ini
doa ku kepada Nya mengalun seiring dengan hentakan kaki ku
ku hentakkan sekerasnya, harapan akan keajaiban terjadi

Ku ayun kembali ayunan ini
melepas banyak nya waktu berkualitas untuk suatu amanah
berharap tetap ada nya waktu itu menunggu

Ku ayun kembali ayunan ini
STOP! Biarkan aku bermain sejenak
mengapa kau tidak bisa menikmati nya?

Ku ayun kembali ayunan ini
Hei...lihatlah! Matahari ku pun tersenyum
mari temani aku bermain ayunan wahai Matahari ku....

Antara aku dan Matahari ku

Matahari ku...
tak perlu kau ragu bahwa aku tak bisa merasakan hangat mu
karena disini tubuh ku tenang

tak perlu kau bimbang bahwa sinar mu tak bisa menyinari ku
tahukah kamu bahwa aku sudah berjalan dengan cahaya dirimu

tak perlu kau takut akan kepergianmu pada malam hari
aku disini bersama mu bermain dalam pikiran ku

tak perlu kau ragu bahwa Bulan menjadi saingan mu
hati ku bukan memilihmu, tapi hati ku di pilih, hati tahu apa jalan nya

aku berbicara pada mu tidak dengan bahasa
aku berbicara dengan mu melalui perasaan

aku mendengar mu tidak dengan suara
aku mendengar mu dengan hati

aku melihat mu tidak dengan mata
aku melihat mu dengan intuisi

Matahari ku, awan mendung pasti datang
petir pasti menyambar bumi dan angin pasti berhembus
jika kita tetap percaya dan selalu berpegangan dengan tali ini
lihatlah, kita adalah sebuah keajaiban dan rahasia lama
aku dan kamu...Matahari ku

16-18 Mei 2009

Harapan selalu ada, namun tak seiring dengan denyut nadi ku
kuatnya harapan ku membuat kuatnya hatiku merasakan mu saat itu
hatiku bukan main-main dengan kenyataan yang terjadi
hanya dengan sedikit realita, bisa menghancurkan besar nya suatu harapan
hati ku berjuang dengan kejam nya realita yang ada
harapan ku dihadapkan perubahan nya untuk menjadi sebuah kenangan
bangkit sendiri, dengan semua serpihan nya
air mata ku mengalir melewati Ilham
tangan ku memegang erat Ilham
harapan ini hanya pada Ilham

Keikhlasan ku mengalahkan segalanya
kepasrahan ku membangunkan ku dari kejatuhan
keegoisan ku untuk tidak dilupakan, ku simpan pada Ilham

Jika memang harapan ku dan diriku
harus pergi
biarkan harapan ini ku simpan pada Ilham
biarkan memori ku dengan mu terjaga pada Ilham
biarkan kisah kita ku ceritakan pada Ilham
biarkan tangis ku di hapus oleh Ilham
dan biarkan aku bangkit dengan Ilham

happy 1st month anniversary!!!

2009-09-19T10:50:00.000-07:00

Please answer the questions and please be honest when answering

Oooohhh….okay *???*

1. First met (where and when)?

We met in Bebaqaran, breakfasting thingy, when?? 2 years ago?? I forgot the details of the date and time

2. He was wearing…

I remembered he was wearing a blue shirt! He must be forgot what I was wearing, zzzz

3. What was the first topic of your conversation with him?

In Bebaqaran ?? We didn’t get a chance to talk, he was so sassy!!!

4. Where was the first time you hang out with him?

We ate Bakmi Pele…

5. He was wearing…

Some kind of batik t-shirt, brown-greenish color if I am not mistaken

6. Why do you like him

*Should I answer this? Can I keep it secretly?* Well, I like him coz he is cute, his smile my fav, actually I can’t describe my feeling well, what I can say is when I see him, all the misery is gone. Got it???

7. Does he know your friends well?

Quite well I guess…

8. Have you introduced him to your family?

I have introduced him to my mom and my sista personally, but my whole family already knew about him J

9. Have you been in fight?

No…we’re never in fight…we’re just “ngambek-ngambek an”

10. Have you been in problem?

What d’you mean with problem here??? Well.. I was in trouble, I got car accident and he helped me so much, never know if I didn’t have him in my life….

11. Your favorite moment with him

Every moment with him I enjoy it so much J

12. Your favorite of his body part

*whatttt???* I like him a lot, from his personality, his attitude, his habit, his body, his his his….love him a lot!

13. Describe him!

Well, He smiles a lot, when you meet him the first time, he will play safe… he’s charming, intellect, humble, care, respect everyone, religious actually, spoiled, hug-able, loveable…

14. Best moment with him

When he told me to read the card that he gave me in the bucket of flowers, and the show was about to begin…

15. His bad habit…

I hate him when he forget something…coz I always remember every little part, but maybe this is what makes us belong together, I complete him in this situation

And here’s some questions that made by my sista, Prisna “ranii” Maharani…

Q : pertama kali ktemu pacar dmn? Tgl brp?

A : udah di jawab ranii di atas…pertama kali ketemu pas buka puasa Al-Azhar di Bebaqaran…tanggal brapa nya gw lupaaaa

Q : kejadiannya gmn?

A : emm…jadi kan waktu itu perkenalan satu-satu karena gw ama dia angkatan yang baru masuk…dia berdiri nya di ujuuuunggg gituu….trus ngenalin diri gituu…Di amah jutek gitu ngenalin diri nya…gak ada sikap bersahabat sama sekaliii…

Q : perasaannya gmn pas prtama kali ktemu?

A : Pertama kali?? Bete…soal nya muka nya jutek songong!

Q : apa kalimat prtama yg diucapin pacar ke lo?

A : waduhh…pas di bebaqaran gak ngomong apa-apa…sempet ngomong deh bentar, eh apa iya yahh??? Yang paling gw inget cuma pas buka puasa Al-Azhar lagi…dia cuma nyapa doank…

Q : pertama kali jln brdua sm pcr, dia pk baju apa?

A : udah gw jawab di atas Ran, dia pake baju ijo-kecoklatan gituu…batik2 gitu dehh…dia crita beli di Solo gituuu….

Q : klo lo pk baju apa?

A : gak gw jawab ah Ran…soal nya pasti dia lupa gw pake baju apaaaa

Q : prginya kmn?

A : ke Bakmi Pele…

Q : pas first date itu, ada kejadian lucu yg trjadi gk?

A : ya Allah, yang tadi first date yah?? Well.. cerita gw ama dia panjaaanggg niihh…yang tadi bukan first date…kalo kejadian lucu pas first date tuh pas kita makan, ada anak kecil rusuh…dan tiap gw jalan, suka ada anak kecil yang ganggu dehhh….

Q : tanggepan temen-temen pas kalian mulai sering brdua gmn?

A : mereka senang sekali dan mendukung bangettt…ampe keluarga ikutan heboh…hehehehe

Q : apa kebiasaan jelek yg paling sering dia lakuin?

A : kalo gw perhatiin, dia suka narik-narik kulit bibir nya…iseng tuh anak…ama suka lupaaaaaaa….

Q : apa percakapan terbodoh yg prnah kalian lakuin?

A : terbodoh??? Apa yaahhh??? Kaya nya yang terbodoh pun jadi lucu dan penting dehh…

Q : apa makanan kesukaan dia?

A : yang manis-manis…prefer cream soup di banding clear soup, prefer martabak manis di banding martabak asin, masakan mama nya…

Q : apa binatang yg plg dia takutin?

A : CICAK…hahaha…London boys pasti takut ama cicak…

Q : Apa kebiasaan lo yg paling sering di protes sm dia?

A : grusak grusuk, panikan, gak tenang…hihi…

Q : warna kesukaan dia apa?

A : BIRUUUU…..

Q : paling lama ngobrol di telvon brp lama?

A : lamaaaa bangettt…2 jam lebih kadang bisaaaaaa

Q : apa yang paling sering kalian bicarakan?

A : macem-macem…ampe mengkhayal-khayal…

Q : apa yg mau dia capai 5 tahun ke dpn?

A : *bismillah mudah2an bener* lulus cepet, kerja…niat nya dia kerja di Microsoft…

Q : apa tempat teraneh yg prna kalian berdua datengin?

A : so far…lapangan sebelah bandaraaaaa!!!!hahahaha

Q : syp artis cewe dlm negri yg paling dia suka?

A : gak tauuu….maaf…hix…dia mah suka nya yang seksi-seksi…

Q : km pacar dia yg ke brp?

A : 5 kalo gak salah

Q : klo dia, pacar ke brp kamu?

A : 5 jugaaaa

Q : ngomong-ngomong, nama pacar lo syp sih?

A: Rizky Novasandro, my lil hugubugumumu…my cutie polar bear…

the SUN part.2

2009-07-28T01:21:00.000-07:00

Dear My King…

I am sorry for knocking your castle’s gate

I am sorry for disturbing you

Today, in this day, I just want you to know

Because I don’t know what will happen tomorrow

So I am here, I just want you to know my beloved King…

Maybe I am not a queen from a kingdom

Maybe I am not the one that you want to be with you

Maybe I am not perfect for you

Maybe I am not the right person for you

Maybe I don’t have what you need

Maybe I don’t have what you want

Maybe all I do will got wrong

Maybe I am just a silly woman

My King… I just want you know

I just want see you happy

I just want see your smile

Coz every time I woke up in the morning

You were the first thing on my mind

I don't know where it came from

All I know is I need you in my life

And you make me feel like I can be a better woman

Now Dear My Lord…

I wanna ask you something

Can I walk with you through your life?
Can I be your friend till the end?

Can I be your queen?

You know what Dear My King,

You've got me wondering if you know that I am wondering about you
This feeling is so strong that I can't imagine you're not feeling it too
You've known me long enough to trust that I want what's best for you
If you wanna be happy then I hope that I am the one that you give your heart to

You see My Lord,

I’m so selfish coz I don’t wanna share you with nobody

And if you must to go someday

Leave me

Never ask me to find another better King

Coz I know, I would never found a person as good as you

I think that enough for today My King

Thank you so much for your time and attention

And my last word

I solemnly swear that I do love you My King....

PS. This is for you my Sun…

thanks X)

2009-07-20T01:24:00.000-07:00

Miss you SO much…

Thanks for always be there for me when I need you…

…xxx…

…xoxo…

1-4-3

DAMN, I HATE THIS GIRL

2009-07-18T05:06:00.000-07:00

I AM ANGRY rite now

Oke…I’ve told my story in previous post

And I’ve said that I would dump THIS GIRL out of my life

In this morning, she called me. I said to her that I was about leaving to my friend’s house which actually I lied coz I didn’t wanna help her again.

And then the rest of my life was going well until about 5 p.m

Somebody was knocking my door. I opened, and I totally shocked that I found HER in front of my door.

GODDAMN, who’s the one that opened the kost’s door for her??? SHIT

Mind my language…

So, she wanted me to come to her house, pretended in front of her father that she was sleeping in my room which actually she went to Solo, and she would get me back to my kost

I was like “hell yeah”

Okeeee…. I helped you this time coz you set me up in this

The next time, I would not help!!!

I would NOT!!!

So, when I got back to my kost, I told everyone, EVERYONE, that if somebody want to see me and says her name is MBAK ICHA or MBAK RIZKA or MY SISTER or WHATEVA…please says that I am not in my room. I told my mom and dad about this too. They will help me then.

LESS STUDY!!!

LESS SOUR!!!

the sweetest guy X)

2009-07-17T08:50:00.000-07:00

Hi Hi Hi….

Today, I thought that I would be bored and sad coz he’s leaving Indonesia, DAMN yeah I miss him A LOT…

I started my day with….

Emm, I guess I must tell the whole beginning story first

Yesterday, July 16^th, a friend of mine *well, I guess as soon as possible I got to dump her to be my friend for my own good* asked me for help. She wanted to runaway from her house so he told her father that I *why ME then?!?!* asked her to sleep in my “kost”.

Coz I’ve been friends with her like emm since I was a little, since I was born…I helped her

I picked up her and I helped her lied *hiks…sucks* to her dad

Then, she asked me a favor to drive her to Mc.D coz she wanted to meet somebody. While I was driving her to Mc.D, I asked her why I must helped her.

She said that somebody was gonna picked her up, who was actually her new boyfriend. GOSH…totally shocked…THE FACT is she already got 2 boyfriends and there is someone new????

Okeeee….I pretended that I was cool with that, then I reached Mc.D

Kinda long time waiting, that person came. A woman, she told me that her name was Eza. Eza was somebody that “kost” in my friend’s house.

After we had chat about emm 5 minutes, Eza’s cell phone rang. She was panic and *I was clueless that time* my friend moved to Eza’s boyfriend car. After she answered that call, she told me that the one in the phone was her fiancée. AT THAT TIME I WAS LIKE “WHAT THE HECK WITH THESE TWO WOMEN??? GOSH I GOT STUCK UP WITH MATURE WOWEN THAT LOVED TO CHEAT!!!” IUHHHHH….SO DISGUSTING!!!

Then I went to my “kost”. I really hate both of them, I mean that I don’t like their attitude and behavior, hey YOU BOTH, where is your dignity??? So I set up my mind that I pretended that I was cool so I left her doing her thing *cheating, tell lies* and I made that previous post and called THE SUN.

Till midnite, his boyfriend didn’t pick up her *gotcha!*, he said that he couldn’t make it, but “he’s just not that into you doctrine” keep spinning on my head.

So today, I delivered her to her house, and I made an unbreakable vow that I just wanna stay away from her…

Oke…today, THE SUN’s leaving Indonesia…he’s going to Singapore and Hongkong. Actually I was upset coz he didn’t even reply my text in the morning, but my mind was distracted that Yuscha, he was sick, he needed my help so I bought chicken porridge for him that he asked me to do that and queued tickets of Harry Potter’s movie for JULI CERIA.

Bored…bored…bored….but it was fun though, I mean that I never sneaked from behind doors and tip toed just like an spy agent and got escaped from the security guards, yeeeeyyyy….

So, while I was waiting the locket’s opened I do my favorite thing rite now “Do mobile upload” hehehe…here was the picture

After queuing, I went back to Yuscha’s house to get the tickets and took Yuscha’s out for lunch and took him to the campus.

And I went back to my lovely room

And I felt alone

And I miss SANDRO

I miss him

A lot

Then I didn’t feel that my tears came out… I cried…hiks….

I tried to persuade my self like “hey, it’s just ten days...come on, you are a big girl Ollie, don’t be silly”

But…I kept on crying

Suddenly, my phone rang, text ringtone…hell yeahhh, must be somebody asking me about the tickets thingy then…but I was shocked that the number was strange and text said in funny way, sandro’s way

And it was HIM…awwww…he such a sweet guy…I <3>

And all the misery just ZAPPPPP…vanished….GONE….

And I enjoyed my day with smile again

PS: to THE SUN a.k.a Sandro…hey get back to Indonesia as soon as possible, and I don’t ask anything from your holiday, what I mean is a present, but It would be nice that the present is YOU…huhuhuhu…. And don’t you know that today, July 17th means that it has been a month of the incident of I got caught that I loved you??? And Edo told the whole story and at that day you said that “gw sayang ama lo juga”

The SUN

2009-07-16T07:39:00.001-07:00

...MISS U SO MUCH...

Letter for The Sun

2009-06-26T21:09:00.000-07:00

Again and Again…

Today, just like the day before

I am staring outside my window

It’s raining outside…coz it’s a rainy season

Outside is so dark…just as sorrow as my heart

Feel I wanna cry out loud but I am already tired to cry

I do miss The Sun rite now

I do need The Sun rite now

But I know it’s raining

And I know The Sun is gone

My mom keeps on telling me that The Sun will come out and meet me at the window

But I can’t deny that the feeling of uncertainty and doubt filled my heart and my mind

“Does anyone could guarantee that The Sun will come to see me?”

“Does anyone could guarantee that The Sun would never fall in love with The Moon?”

“Does anyone could tell me in my face that The Sun would still be My Sun after this long rainy season?”

Coz I love The Sun and the Sun always brighten up my day and The Sun left me in rainy season…

My BUSINESS or NOT???

2009-05-25T21:33:00.000-07:00

Just because this post was a story that made me sad…so I wrote it using BLUE color, to remind me how much I was feeling blue that time…hehehe

It happened…emm when I was doing my Gathering Night thingy

and the D-Day of Gathering Night

When I was preparing my Gathering Night for the participants of National Accounting Olympiad ( Gadjah Mada Accounting Days is divided into 4 events; National Accounting Olympiad, Company Visit, Gathering Night and Seminar Workshop), it was so hectic…it was fun coz I was playing with many decorations, meeting the coolest band ever, working with the greatest partners ever…

My partner: Nugy (left) and Vito (right)

But I couldn’t deny that in that time, my feeling was awful, sorrow and sad. I didn’t even know why… if you seen me that time, you wouldn’t know it coz I kept it secretly but it hurt me…

I pretended *so much, maybe I could get a Grammy Award or Emmy Award coz so much acting that night…* to be happy, cheerful and smile nicely…but my heart so hurt…I couldn’t focus at that time, but I was so professional that night so it was success…

I didn’t know and I don’t know why sometimes I got that feeling, from nowhere…and it MUST BE SOMETHING HAPPENED...and it was TRUE again, SOMETHING HAPPENED and IT HURTS totally…

I can’t tell it actually in detail but I’ll tell it in big frame…

My story kinda similar with the post in http://rumiigeminis.blogspot.com/, the title “just for your information”… similar but in different sight-seeing

Have you ever, knowing something that well I must say, maybe you were not supposed to know it, but unfortunately YOU KNEW IT???...HELL YEAH…

But the mistaken here…I was the one that in curiously finding the information, but I purposed that it just for fun, but in purposely I got the information that it hurt my heart and it happened that day I got that bad feeling…it matched then…

I was so sad, and decided to go out with my fellas to watch Angels and Demons. After that, my emotion was back in normal, my other wise side said to my self

And here is the quote that I made for myself

Maybe, there’s something that you don’t have to know it, It is not because they don’t trust you, they don’t love you; but maybe it’s not part of your business and if you know it, maybe it would hurt your feeling, so the best thing is YOU DON’T HAVE TO KNOW IT, just let the time tells you the truth…

BUBYE <3

I AM BACK!!!

2009-05-25T21:09:00.000-07:00

Hi Hi Hi…

Meet me again…

Kinda so excited that I can write post again, coz a couple weeks ago, I was kinda busy with Gadjah Mada Accounting Days * I was in charge of Gathering Night and It WAS SUCCESS AND AMAZING…YEAH!!! All of event in GMAD was AWESOME!!!*

but the suck thing is I WAS SICK!!!

My illness has a “cool” name; CONJUNCTIVIS…have you ever listened that weird name of illness??

Ask to me that was my first time I heard that…

Conjunctivitis is an illness, attacking your eyes, caused by viruses and bacteria

Your eyes will be filled with tears, got puffy or swollen, getting red and something “belekan” *iuhh…

It was so annoying coz when you put the teardrop-medicine, it hurt…I always cried that time coz I can’t stand for the hurt-feeling thingy…

Well, it’s not just me the victim of this freaky illness, Me, Ajeng and Dilla *and Dilla’s boyfriend too* were the quarto of Conjunctivitis’s victims

The effect of Conjunctivis is still now, even I am declaring that I am free of Conjunctivis..

Now, my eyes can’t see clear, everything is blurring and if I got an activity that well spending my energy, I will get a headache and fever…SUCKS ISN’T IT??